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wtf i hate my life
okay so if you hate your life at school dont you have the right to not hate your life at home? well fuck that cause i hate that life too.
my mom is officially a fucking pyscho. ever since my grandma moved in ive hated everything about living at home. dont get me wrong i love her but its so stressful and i hate it. i need her to move out for my own sanity. she drives me crazy. i have to come home every day right after school so i can “babysit” her. and my mom seriously gets pissed at me when i have to stay after. its ridiculous. my grandma is always repeating herself and shes constantly getting in the way. and she likes to blame us all the time. shes like well i was all alone in my room and i was bored so i came out here (in my kitchen). right in the middle of everything getting in the way of our super house cleaning cause my moms a fucking pyscho bitch. also cause my grandma moved in i had to live in my basement for 6 months and i just started moving my little stuff in my old room into my new room and i told my mom what i left in there i didnt want anymore. so my moms a little fucking bitch and put everything on the stairs for mme to bring up and i told her i didnt want it and i put it in the living room and she just put it on the stairs again. oh and get this shes a hypocrite x9847987 too. a few weeks ago i asked her if i could go to a doctor or therapist because of my anxiety and she was like no thats ridiculous and a waste of money you dont need that. but this morning she was like im going to the doctor to ask me for anti-depressants! WTF IS THAT ABOUT. she is crazy. shes like i hate my life no one loves me. i go oh thanks mom what am i then? no you know what you make me feel awesome. and then we got into a huge fight and she started hitting me so i ran away and called her out as a fucking pyscho and she flipped out and was like your making nana upset. i dont fucking care about that. im upset and if you dont want me to flip out worse let me get it out now. my grandmas like oh my god shes such a bad kid shes horrible. why does have such a dirty mouth? why do you two have to get so mad at eachother. i never did that. wtf ive heard my grandma swear and yell, i mean it was a while ago but still. me and my moms fighting is none of her business. she is the reason im like a ticking bomb. i swear im gonna go crazy if she doesnt leave soon. we can never do anything because of her. im a teenager and i understand i have to sacrafice stuff for family but nobody realizes that i have to sacrafice almost everything for her. its too much. the funny thing about today is that my mom ccalled me crazy when she’s clearly the pyscho one. ugh i need to leave. but my dad left to live in florida for the next 5 months and i cant drive yet so i cant live at my sisters house. the worst is when after the fights i tell my mom to stop talking to me i just want to be left alone and she goes on and on about me or whatever and all i want to do is just be left alone. so i just came upstairs started blaring my music and automatically started writing this blog. its so hard. im crying my eyes out right now as i write this and i dont know what to do. i need meds or something for my anxiety cause my mom just doesnt understand the pressure she puts me under. I CANT LIVE THIS LIFE ANYMORE.
i need out.
